I love my new job
I love my new job.
I’m still adjusting, which comes with bouts of imposter syndrome, uncertainty, anxiety… all totally normal things that are unpleasant, but not unexpected nor unbearable. I still have a lot to learn, but not only do I think I can learn whatever I need to, no one else seems to doubt it either. It is so refreshing to be assumed to be competent, rather than… well, I don’t know exactly what my last day-to-day manager assumed. That is something I had taken for granted at previous jobs. It was extremely frustrating and demoralizing to realize that someone you are working closely with doesn’t believe in you.
I want to learn from my experience in my 2014 consulting gig, but I also just want to leave it the heck behind me and not look back.
I never expected to be a person who hated their job. It felt like a personal failure to be so unhappy with what I was spending my days doing. I’m a positive person. I’m determined. Most of all, I have been successful in the past in maneuvering myself into favorable positions. Periods of frustration are part of any job, but I have always been able to get from a point of frustration into a situation where things worked. Last year, I was in a situation that was making me miserable, and I couldn’t figure out how to get out of it without quitting my job or waiting it out.
In my new job, and everything feels right so far. The work is mostly interesting and varied. The people are great. The culture is very positive, and I feel like I fit into it better. I have the most beautiful walk to work, and I just feel so incredibly lucky.
I used to feel that way ALL OF THE TIME when we lived in our little beach apartment in southern California. I’m so glad I’m starting to find that feeling here too.